by Chris McGinty
Although the reasons have changed in recent years, the months of February and March have generally been times that I have to put in a lot of hours. I’ve often had this fantasy that I would pile up a whole bunch of money during other parts of the year, so that when I hit this early year crunch time, I would have enough money sitting there to just work normal hours. This just doesn’t seem to work.
I could get into a whole blog post, or set of blog posts, about how the system is rigged against the poor people, but that’s not really what I’m talking about at the moment.
The thing that derailed me doing the daily blog last year is derailing me now. It’s that I’m having to put in a lot of hours at work. I no longer have the three or four hours of downtime every night to just sit in front of a laptop and write.
I get this belief in my head that because I can sometimes get in the creative mode by thinking while I’m driving and writing the thoughts down when I’m sitting stationary that it shouldn’t be hard for me to keep up with something like a daily blog. It’s not easy though and it just completely frustrates me after a while. I think that’s why I stopped writing last year, and why tonight it just really kind of felt like, “You know what fuck it don’t even worry about it.”
It’s not the ideal situation and it always ends up eventually tipping to where paying bills outweighs the ability to actually have any sort of free time, so I don’t know. Maybe I’ll continue doing daily blog posts. Maybe it’ll just have to wait until I’ve gotten my financial life stable again.